Leap of Faith

My very first blog I talked about taking a chance. I told you to take a chance and tell that girl you like her. What was holding you back? Rejection? Pain? Suffering? Well, the real pain and suffering was that you hadn’t taken your leap of faith. You just sat by and let the world pass you by.

I gave the illusion that I was a perfect human and took every chance I could. Well, to be honest, I lied. I’m extremely passive. I didn’t have the courage to tell the girl I like that I like her. I felt like the biggest hypocrite in the world that I would say one thing, but I didn’t even take a swig of my own medicine. How could you trust me? But all of that has changed.

I have the wonderful news that I am no longer that man. I finally bucked up and took my leap. I told that girl how I feel. To be honest, it is one of the proudest moments I have had happen to me. Right now, I feel as if a thousand pounds have been lifted off of my chest. I feel free. I freed myself from mental slavery. It is truly one of the greatest feelings to finally have relief. Relief from living in mystery to finally being able to openly express yourself.

It wasn’t smooth sailing, but the task was accomplished. Even if it doesn’t work out, I still feel proud that I did it. I almost backed down a few times, but I had finally had enough. I wasn’t going to continue to push myself back. It was time for me to man up and take back control of my life. Well, my friends. I did just that.  Now, as of this moment, I have no word on the status of it, but in my own heart, I consider it a victory. Why? I took back control of my life. I can officially not worry myself to the max. I no longer have to worry about the stresses. I have handed the ball off. It is off my hands, and I feel great because of it. To be honest, I feel like I’m standing on top of a mountain. Now, I can sort of understand what it must have felt like for Andrew Jackson to defeat the British in New Orleans. Like Jackson, I went up against the odds, but I had hope. I may have felt lower some days than others, but I never lost hope. I tried to keep my head up whenever possible. I have won a major victory in my heart over this and jeez, what an incredible feeling.

To close, the thing I want you to remember is to never lose hope. Always keep your chin held high. Always remember that reinforcements are there next to you. I won’t name names, but they all know who they are. Thank you. Remember: “you miss one hundred percent of the shots you don’t take.” –Wayne Gretzky. Take that shot. Who knows, you may just win the Stanley cup. Life is Good.

Nicholas