The Story Of Moving On

Out With The Old, In With The New: The Story of Moving On

Man, life is one wild ride. It feels like that one roller coaster at your favorite amusement park. The one with the longest line and holds the record for the most people vomiting in the tri-state area. It has its ups and its downs. Well, I’ve made it my personal goal to not complain on my blog. Nobody wants to read about other people’s problems, so I try to take my own problems and make a learning experience or at least see the bright side to it. Granted, for those of you who know me personally, I haven’t been the best at staying positive the last few weeks. In fact, I’ve acted down right miserable. It gets annoying, I know. I’d like to formally apologize for that. We all have our off times. Even George Washington had down points in his life. Well, lets get to the real point of why I’m posting tonight.

You ever hear the saying: Out with the old, In with the new? Well ladies and gentleman, Nick Pensari is at that crossroad of life. Recently, a few negative things have affected my life. I don’t feel like going into details, because it is irrelevant to the matter at this point in time. Stuff happens in life, I think we can all agree with that. For me, a few things have been really bothering me. I was to the point that I felt like I was in the bottom of a well with no way of getting back up. I felt that it was better to feel pity for myself, rather than pick myself up from the bootstraps and climb back on the horse. I took a very negative outlook towards life, became bitter towards others, and even got to the point where all my faith in humanity was diminished. I wanted nothing more than to watch the world burn. It felt good at first to have hatred towards everything. It made myself feel better, but as the days dragged on, it continued to wear at me. The foundation I had built to make myself feel better slowly eroded to the point where I no longer had a foothold and spiraled into my bottomless well. Downer, huh? Tell me about it. Last but not least, it probably didn’t help the situation that I’m currently reading 1984. That book is not a good read for those in a well. Oh well, great book. I love it.

No more, I say! I’m tired of being down and wallowing in the negatives. It does a number on a man. I’m proud to announce that it is the perfect time to kick out the old and bring in the new. It will take time, but I feel that it is better to try and keep the chin up. Never give up on a good fight. Take Joe Louis, for example. He lost in 1936 to the German Boxer Max Schmeling during the 12^th round. He could have thrown in the gloves and give up, but no. What did he do? Faced him again and knocked him out during the first round. Joe picked himself back up and went back to the ring. He fought the good fight. He didn’t give up. Why should we give up on something? Don’t give up. It is the time for me to pick myself back up and get back to business.

To quote the Joker “And here we go…” Let’s get back to life. Life is not easy, it is not all fun and games, but it is always good. Remember that: Life is Good.

-Nicholas 

*Side note: You guys are the greatest support I have. Thank you so much for everything. The support I get for this blog is awesome. I love all of you. Once again, Thank you!! 

Leap of Faith

My very first blog I talked about taking a chance. I told you to take a chance and tell that girl you like her. What was holding you back? Rejection? Pain? Suffering? Well, the real pain and suffering was that you hadn’t taken your leap of faith. You just sat by and let the world pass you by.

I gave the illusion that I was a perfect human and took every chance I could. Well, to be honest, I lied. I’m extremely passive. I didn’t have the courage to tell the girl I like that I like her. I felt like the biggest hypocrite in the world that I would say one thing, but I didn’t even take a swig of my own medicine. How could you trust me? But all of that has changed.

I have the wonderful news that I am no longer that man. I finally bucked up and took my leap. I told that girl how I feel. To be honest, it is one of the proudest moments I have had happen to me. Right now, I feel as if a thousand pounds have been lifted off of my chest. I feel free. I freed myself from mental slavery. It is truly one of the greatest feelings to finally have relief. Relief from living in mystery to finally being able to openly express yourself.

It wasn’t smooth sailing, but the task was accomplished. Even if it doesn’t work out, I still feel proud that I did it. I almost backed down a few times, but I had finally had enough. I wasn’t going to continue to push myself back. It was time for me to man up and take back control of my life. Well, my friends. I did just that.  Now, as of this moment, I have no word on the status of it, but in my own heart, I consider it a victory. Why? I took back control of my life. I can officially not worry myself to the max. I no longer have to worry about the stresses. I have handed the ball off. It is off my hands, and I feel great because of it. To be honest, I feel like I’m standing on top of a mountain. Now, I can sort of understand what it must have felt like for Andrew Jackson to defeat the British in New Orleans. Like Jackson, I went up against the odds, but I had hope. I may have felt lower some days than others, but I never lost hope. I tried to keep my head up whenever possible. I have won a major victory in my heart over this and jeez, what an incredible feeling.

To close, the thing I want you to remember is to never lose hope. Always keep your chin held high. Always remember that reinforcements are there next to you. I won’t name names, but they all know who they are. Thank you. Remember: “you miss one hundred percent of the shots you don’t take.” –Wayne Gretzky. Take that shot. Who knows, you may just win the Stanley cup. Life is Good.

Nicholas

Current Endeavors

First off, I would like to offer my sincerest apologies for the lack of blog writing the last two weeks. They say war is hell, but in reality, being a high school teenager is hell. My life has been extremely chaotic that I feel like I haven’t had a chance to just stop and take a breath. I finally managed to escape from reality for a few minutes to post this blog. I’m going to take the time I have now to fill you guys in on why my life has been crazy. Let’s just be clear here, life may be crazy right now, but it is still good! No need to worry there, guys.

To begin, my month of October hasn’t been my brightest time of the year. Something about that month that always seems to bring me down. This year has been tougher than past. I felt like I was overwhelmed with everything on my plate. Most of you know that my life is very busy and I’m extremely active in my community and school. As you all may know, every great leader has bad moments. I had one of those. I seem to get an idea in my head and tend to over think it to the point where I can’t tell reality from what my mind thinks. I’m sure we have all had this happen to them. Oh well, you just have to keep carrying on, right?

Next, I was selected to represent Alta at the United States Senate Youth Program Competition along with Alli Wright. We have the opportunity to be able to represent the state of Utah in Washington D.C. for a week to learn about the federal government and receive a substantial scholarship from the Hearst Foundation. It is honestly a chance of a lifetime! You have no idea how incredible it is to be involved in this experience. That has taken up a good portion of time and has led to a great deal of stress in my life, but I handled it. Just got to keep your head held high, my friends!

This past weekend I was able to compete in the Utah Debate Coaches Speech Arts Classic. I had a tough time wanting to go, but I bucked up and went. What would you know, I managed to take second place and was elected best chair in Varsity Congress. It was an incredible feeling to know that I busted my butt and with that, I received great reward for my hard work. It is a great feeling to have in your heart.

Finally, I just want to express my thanks to all those who have supported me in my endeavors. You guys are AMAZING! You honestly have no idea how great of a support system I have. Thank you very much for everything! I truly mean it! Well, those were just two of the big things currently in my life. There are more, but I’ll save them for a later date. Just remember that life is good. Stay golden.

Respectfully yours,

Nicholas